I left for camp….it was fun….hahahaha vague much? lol
lets see, we drove there in our motorhome lol pretty much slept the entire way so I have no idea how long of a drive it was lol probably around…..eight hours 
haha I checked my phone right before I lost signal to get a haha message telling me that I was a fat panda lol and a sad message from joel telling me that he didnt want to talk to a slut anymore then signal cut off so I was all like…….okay =[ and....yeah....sad day.
so we finally made it up the crazy hill and parked the rv. then found out that the power wasn't working haha so we had no heater [.....] o_O! and it was cold lol we hung out at the gym most of the time. mostly with kim and joel(not the jerk one in simi). one thing about little joel is that haha he likes to hit….a lot! haha and his punches hurt! then haha of course the speaker at the camp had to bring bags and bags of rubberbands to sell to the kids lol that helped me and my bruises xDDD so now I have all of these little lines everywhere haha thanks to him and sweet sam randomly walking up and smacking me close range ahha
so after a while of hanging out with the little kid haha I ended up treating him like me little brother xD because…..he looks exactly like my nephews ahha since patrick and ashton are like my little brothers that I see like every day……….joel fell into that category haha this was not good because he has a crush on me lol and it made it worse this year. it got to the point where i’d go off with with someone and he would go around and ask everyone where mandy went until he found me aahahhaha by the end…….I felt a little squashed. I was talking to a friend about haha boy stuff and I didn’t need him listening so we went in the bathroom to haha talk lol then after like ten minutes someone walked in and asked us why my little brother was haha sitting outside the door on the floor lol so we did what sounded the most fun and climed out of the little bathroom window hahaha but it was two stories high so hanging and grasping onto the side of the roof lol looked kinda funny lol then after that we walked around….talked 
went up to the cave about a mile up this hill behind the cafeteria ^_^ that was fun. haha it was homeschool camp! so the cave was empty lol
I realized something though. I know that the person i’ll end up with……..is out there. ha i might even know him already! but.. what if im a jerk to him? @.@ what if i push him away because i think hes like everyone else? what if i mess things up all because im stupid? =( I know myself. i’ll mess it up. i’ll be the cat lady that picked her best friend over someone she really liked @.@
this is something I was thinking about as I was talking to christina. she’s getting married as soon as she turns eighteen.
as my aunt susie always told me……..”guys are like dogs. you pick the best of the litter and be happy”. i want more tho =(
off that……
so…now i’m back from camp and I missed me anya and jessy haha leaving them killed me =[ but hey! who can have fun with me out of town? lol okay, don’t answer that. haha
jeez I havent seen anya……… in a month =[
=[ I miss her =[ so very much. =[
so….anyway…..mall with jessy! yay! haha I havent seen her in FOREVER!!!! =[ its been like a week. o_O! how did that happen? oh yeah! camp happened >_< haha
and tonight……the shining was CREEPY!!!! gah! haha
I was all like….thats one old movie! it cant be THAT scary
but………….red rum freaked me out o.O!
ahha so on that note………ima go to bed ^_^
nightie night <3
