okay, so today…I was all like…..I wonder what would happen if I took a razor and shaved my dog? haha
ahahahahhahahahaha it was fun haha xD she’s me little sausage now cuz she’s ahha pudgy lol ^_^ hehehe and um other that giving my dog a bath and shaving her down…….I just sat around and wrote some new music……tried planning out my birthday hmm idk what I want to do =[
idk what to do =( i sent this guy a text... i wanted to start talking to him again. i found out that sarah didnt date him... freaking b.... =( i cant believe... idk =( now he wont text me back. idk =( maybe i was mean to him? =( i just feel icky now =( i hate myself so much.
my problem has always been "i love you" =( i had someone tell me that a little bit ago. but... it wasnt right =1 i liked him alot. i did! =( i knew him forever but...things changed. he was horrible to me and it was all because i let him treat me bad. i let him walk all over me. =[ its not going to happen again!
and as far as ily's go.....I just know that that guy is out there. he's not ready for me yet and has to deal with stuff but eventually....it will be perfect. I just know it in my heart! and I dont want to say "I love you" to everyone like it means nothing. I want to keep it to were I really mean it!
mmm....the rest of the day after that was pretty much reemphasizing the fact that I need to trust people more in my life. i've been keeping things in the dark that could be hurting other people....all from me not saying anything. I just have to pray and try to do what god wants me to do. hmm........=[
~and~
kyle is super cool for being the good person that he is 
I was kind of depressed today. had some things to think about. but just talking to him.....you can tell that he really has a heart for god =] I wish I was that determined. makes me want to be a better person gives me hope =]
and lol now i’m sitting downstairs alone =[ ahha I just realized this xDDD my little sister put on SNL and I was laughing really hard to this one really creepy part haha
so…..i’m laughing and then i’m like ahha thats soooo funny! ……*no answer* haha and I was all like…….kami!?! are you there? turns out that she was totally passed out on the couch and I was watching the show all by myself o_O! haha
so now that i’m alone………..hmm……
I think i’m gonna go to bed. i’m sleepy
<3
